So I know it isn’t exactly ‘ideal’ to do your thank you speech as your first blog, being that you don’t have any followers yet – and shit, let’s be real – there’s a chance the only followers I will have are the ones I thank – or pay 😉 HA
But, I’ve always been one to go against the grain, and those that know me, know bassackwards is generally how I roll – so, thank you speech it is!
I want to say thank you to all of those who believed in me – on any caliber, but this particular shout out is for those who have gotten me to this blank page.
To Emily – who gave me my first journal after Josie passed as an outlet to grieve. You have no idea what I’ve learned from that and what a wonderful coping tool it’s been since.
To Brittany – who has always pushed me to get it on paper, despite how it looked “Just DO IT damn it!” You were always sending me reminder emails of inspirational quotes to keep me going while reminding me the details would unfold later, the important thing was to keep the pen in hand. You’ve been a spectator of my writings since.
To Liz – you have never criticized nor belittled any of my ideas or passions. You’ve listened with an open mind and heart and slowly fed the fire of desire that’s been brewing, even if you thought I’d lost my shit even worse then you originally imagined 😉 HA
To Rachael – who finally talked me into pursuing an alternative health approach, which opened a door I would’ve never imagined – one to a passion I didn’t know I had. What I have learned since has been priceless on more levels then I thought possible, and I’m hoping that’ll tie in with this blog as I go along.
To Shianne – for your no bullshit “you said blog – consider it done” attitude. You did the ground work to get me up and going on this site so I had no more excuses as to why I should probably wait even longer to start. In fear I’d have nothing to say once I got here. Welp – guess I’m here now aren’t I!? 🙂
To Vanessa – for being my bridge, connecting me from point A to point B. For clearing the fog and giving me clearer direction as to how to proceed. The appreciation I have for your work, your ‘flipping of the lens’ and your wonderful guided meditations are beyond words. (Don’t forget to check out her work by the way http://www.vanessafeils.com )
To a family base so rooted and strong, especially my parents. Although you may not understand alot of it, my reason for it or behind it – you trust and support it and me. And at the end of the day, that’s all I can really ask for. We’ve been forced to survive alot together – when many other families would’ve unraveled, you forced us to stand together stronger and taller. Thank you for providing opportunities that have allowed me to open doors such as this.
To my beautiful daughter. You will never know what a saving grace you have been to me through the years. We have made one hell of a team, and as much of a struggle as it’s been, (and I have a feeling the best of the struggling years are yet to come 😉 I know we’ll be OK in the end – I know we’ll make it through together. I can only hope you are able to see yourself as I see you – beautiful from the inside and out – and I hope you are able to continue to portray that to the people and world around you as you begin to endure your own life battles.
And last but certainly not least – Josie. Although the pain that has stemmed from you choosing to leave has been the most heart wrenching and one I hope to never endure again – thank you. Thank you for your help on the other side of this physical realm. The trials that you’ve helped me through, the signs you’ve given along the way to remind me of your presence. The doors you’ve opened for me and the people you’ve put in my path to help guide me, test me and bless me. I have never doubted you standing by my side since day 1. You were a realization and start of a faith I didn’t know I had. One that rested outside of an institution, a person given a sermon or a memorized prayer. One that has grown significantly stronger since.
And to every single soul that has crossed my path in between. The good as well as the bad. For all of those that have hurt me, you have shown me where my true strength lies. That have pushed me to see the bigger picture, that have torn me down just so I had to build myself back up. It’s taken awhile – but it’s good to be back! There are far more then just these that deserve a shout out, for reasons I can only begin to touch on – and hopefully through the blogs, I’ll be able to elaborate! I guess you’ll have to stick around to see 😉